... had a sense of resolution, too, that I was indeed equipped to write a Liveing-like book, that perhaps I could be the Liveing of our time.Writing books, Sacks suggests, saved him. The next story I read, an excerpt from D.T. Max's much heralded biography of David Foster Wallace (in Newsweek), suggests how writing would and would not save this genius. The excerpt, which focuses on Wallace's early correspondence with Jonathan Franzen as well as his infatuation with Mary Karr, suggests that this book is well worth reading as a whole. I've always been a huge D.T. Max fan, and I'm certain I will learn from these pages.
The next day, before I returned Liveing's book to the library, I photocopied the whole thing, and then, bit by bit, I started to write my own book. The joy I got from doing this was real—infinitely more substantial than the vapid mania of amphetamines—and I never took amphetamines again.
In between the Sacks and the Wallace, I found two poems of interest. Joyce Carol Oates has a chilling, compelling poem in The New Yorker called "Edward Hopper's '11 A.M.,' 1926"—worth reading from beginning to end. Oates was one of several authors who contributed to one of my favorite poetry collections (a gift from my sister) called The Poetry of Solitude: A Tribute to Edward Hopper (collected and introduced by Gail Levin). Clearly this project, all these years later, continues to inspire.
Finally, within the pages of this week's New Yorker is a poem by C.K. Williams, one of my favorite living poets. I had the great pleasure and privilege, years ago, of interviewing C.K. in his Princeton home for a magazine story. Later, I saw him read at the Writer's House at Penn. He remains vital, interesting, experimental, and honest, and his new poem, "Haste," is a terrifying portrait of time. From its later phrases:
No one says Not so fast now not Catherine when I hold her not our dog as I putter behind herMy first corporate interview isn't until 1 this afternoon. I'm sitting down to read Truman Capote's In Cold Blood. I figure it's time.
yet everything past present future rushes so quickly through me I've frayed like a flag
Unbuckle your spurs life don't you know up ahead where the road ends there's an abyss? ...
(That above, by the way, is my cat Colors, who lived with me for many years. She's climbing into my bedroom window. I'm eleven or twelve years old. And I'm reading on my bed as she pokes her pink nose in.)

Writing and reading totally saves me. Writing keeps the dark away. Reading is the infusion of light.
ReplyDeleteMuch to ponder here.
Not sure you will be able to concentrate on your corporate interview after being immersed in In Cold Blood. You might want to put back some light by reading some poetry.
I have not read In Cold Blood either. I'll wait for your impressions. I'm ready the book club book and woefully behind in it...since the meeting is tomorrow and I'm only halfway done
ReplyDeleteI've not read In Cold Blood either, but I'm so glad you had some time to yourself this morning to really read. :)
ReplyDeleteWhat wonderful reads. I have loved many of Sacks' books. I wasn't aware of his earlier drug use.
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