Grace Before Dying/Lori Waselchuck: Reflections

By tomorrow afternoon I'll be walking the streets of New Orleans, a city I've long yearned to see. My dear friend Ruta Sepetys set her second novel, Out of the Easy, there. Katie, my student, has been living there this past year—absorbing the culture, bringing her compassionate heart to triage work, and lending her name to a leading character in the novel I finished first-drafting last week. And for a few important years, New Orleans was home to my new friend Lori Waselchuk, the award-winning documentary photographer and fellow Pew Fellow of whom I have written here and (in conjunction with the launch of Anna Badkhen's The World is a Carpet) here.

Today I dedicate this blog to Lori's deeply moving book, Grace Before Dying, a photographic essay inspired by the three years Lori spent documenting the hospice program at the Louisiana State Penitentiary. Lori was invited to do this work by the magazine Imagine Louisiana. She could not, after the assignment was done, imagine walking away. For within the walls of what was once the most notorious prison system in the world—cruel, overcrowded, filthy, murderous—Lori had met men caring for men in their final months. She had met double murderers with a gentle touch, coffin builders with loving hands, laborers waking early to sit in vigilance for their dying best friends, prisoners who had become expert quilters. The hospice program at this prison, also known as Angola, had gentled, and lifted, spirits. It had eased men—some of them locked up for life on drug possession charges—out of bitterness and toward love.

Lori documents the day to day in the hospice program with black and white photographs that are wide angled and intimate and exceptionally personal and true. She shows us the needle in the hands of the quilter, the name on the foot of a sock, a man's last moments, a procession of mourners. She shows us Lloyd Bone, "incarcerated at Angola in 1971 for murder" as he "guides the horse-drawn hearse carrying the body of George Alexander to Point Lookout II, Angola's cemetery" and the "procession of hospice volunteers and friends" as they "walk and sing behind the hearse."

I had looked through Lori's photographs the very day she gave me this book. Today I sat and read her moving introduction, Lawrence N. Powell's essay on the prison's history, and every single caption. I read, too, Lori's acknowledgments in the back, where she writes, in part, "My words of appreciation come up short, so I will express my gratitude through living a life and producing work that emulates the humanity they show for each other."

I haven't known Lori Waselchuk long. But I've seen her throw a party for a friend, lift a friend's child to her hips, talk about the neighbors she loves in West Philadelphia. I've heard Lori talk, and I've seen Lori carry the good flame forward.

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walking West Philadelphia with the incredible documentary photographer, Lori Waselchuk

Eight years ago I was honored by a Pew Fellowship in the Arts grant. It was a gift of time; it was also a gift of hope. I was working on that odd Schuylkill River book (Flow)—the book no one got, the book no one could label. I was given the chance to keep working on those prose poems/narratives/not fictions and to find them an eventual home (Temple University Press) and then to go out into the world and meet those open-hearted readers who didn't give a whit if the book could not, for the life of itself, conform to a category.

But there are many gifts associated with the Pew, and they continue. Yesterday, all these years later, was the gift of Lori Waselchuk, who won a Pew last year for her incredible photography—work that has shown up in the New York Times, Newsweek, Los Angeles Times, and elsewhere. Lori is also the creator of the book Grace Before Dying, which, in the book's words "tells the emotional story of the extraordinary breakthrough in humanity that has helped transform Angola, once one of the most dangerous maximum security prisons in the United States, to one of the least violent..... Waselchuk not only shows a culture of caring and compassion that challenges stereotypes of incarcerated people, but also provides an intimate and personal perspective on what long-term and life sentences signify for those inside." Lori's photographs speak. They humanize.

I met Lori for a long-awaited conversation at the edge of the Penn campus. We had no plan, just an idea about fellowship. I'm working, or should be working, on a book that partly takes place in West Philadelphia (this book also partly takes place in Florence, Italy), and I've been walking that neighborhood each Tuesday before class. Lori happens to live there. Lori happens to actually know things about the puzzle of the place, its great ethnic charms, its upstairs bars, its blue grass, its mosques, its thrift stores, its cats, its park, its schools. I didn't have to do much more but express my curiosity, and we were off for one of the best guided tours in my personal memory. We capped the walking with a meal at Manakeesh. We had stuff to say, and kept on saying it. I found myself with a copy of Lori's book.

By the time I returned to the Penn campus to meet one on one with my fifteen students (and then, later, with Alice Ma, my fellowship student), I was in that exhausted/exhilarated place a mind/body backs into after days of long hours and little sleep. Who better to run into, then, but Greg Djanikian, who leads the creative writing program at Penn and has for quite a while. Greg is beloved. Just last week one of my students was talking about what happens to a poem when Greg reads it out loud. It gets lifted, my student said, into greater meaning. I sensed what a great man Greg was by reading a book of his own poems (So I Will Till the Ground) for review many years ago. Every single conversation since has been affirm-atory.

And so there Greg was, near the campus edge—busy, I'm sure, but perfectly willing to stop and talk, to not steer clear of the vrooooom of my enthusiasms, to let me be me.

I love people like that.

I loved the day.

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Jay Kirk at the Hotels Rwanda

You get lucky every once in a while in life; you meet the right people. When I won a Pew Fellowships in the Arts grant back in 2005, I didn't just win time (thanks to a wholly generous appropriation), I won a chance encounter, at a Pew event, with a fellow grant winner named Jay Kirk. He was (and it took about two seconds to figure this out) the real writer in our conversation of two. The kind that treks around the globe, looking and finding. It's not that Jay is fearless; ask him, and he'll rate his fears for you on a sliding scale of ten. It's that Jay is alive, Jay wants to know, Jay has the whole flipping dictionary in his head, and he wants to put a few of those words—subluxation, anyone?—to good use.

I've read some Jay since then. A chapter from his book-in-the-making, Kingdom Under Glass, about the taxidermist Carl Akeley, that had me going apoplectic in my search for justice-doing praise. (I'm a writer; I'm supposed to praise eloquently; all I could think of was, Wow, man. Wow, like, Wow, Jay, that's great.) A couple of archived onliners here and there. His emails, which somehow manage to convey incredible tenderness (toward his wife, his child, his work, his students) while never being anything less than straight-up daggering (is daggering the right word in this context, Jay, tell me, I need more words) smart.

Get to the point, you say. The point is: Read Jay Kirk in this month's GQ. Read his story, "Hotels Rwanda." Because that's where Jay was, a while ago—in Rwanda, a country marked and bloodied by a terrifying genocide, a country whose hope for revival is now pinned to tourist dollars. Yes, you read that right. Tourism in Rwanda. Jay was there, he went traveling, he saw for the rest of us, and the story he's penned isn't just deeply moving and sometimes hilarious and often very sad. The story he penned is Jay, through and through: human and complex and not manipulative and good.

Here's one of my favorite passages, just to get you started:

"This experience has been checked off the list. It isn't just that it's over, but also because it no longer belongs to the exclusive realm of the imagination, and to be quite honest, I think my imagination will miss it."

http://men.style.com/gq/features/landing?id=content_7404

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On Grants and Gifts

As I was writing about the gift of friendship earlier this morning, I was also thinking about the gift of time. I run a business most days each week — consulting to companies, creating (with my husband-partner) corporate annual reports and history books, brochures, branding strategies, brochures. It's great work to have, and we're grateful. (http://www.fusion-communications.com/)

But always the stories are stirring within. Always I'm stealing time, four in the morning, usually. Ten at night. Train trips and plane trips, vacations. I write because I'm happiest writing. Because that's what calm is for me.

A couple of years ago, I had the idea to write a book about the Schuylkill River that runs through my city, Philadelphia. I thought about the river as a she, as a woman who could never die and was forced to flow over her own history, daily. I thought about all the Philadelphians who had crossed over her, sat beside her, fished from her, waded through her, rowed down her. I thought about how it would feel to reflect a comet, or to be skated on, or to search endlessly for someone or something to love.

I wanted to write the river's autobiography, in other words—a strange enough idea, by some standards. I knew I'd need a lot of time in bookstacks, in archives, talking to people. Time I'd have difficulty stealing.

So I wrote about what I hoped to do, wrote a preface, wrote about me, and sent all that in with a Pew Fellowships in the Arts grant application. Extreme good luck was on my side, and in 2005, I was one of several artists who won. Time had been granted. A book could be made.

There are an amazing number of open doors out there. Resources that validate, fund, and provide. Lifelines. Check out the following sites, for example, and start building your bridges.

http://www.proofpositive.com/contests/writecontests.htm
http://www.winningwriters.com/resources/ur_web_detail.php?subcategory_code=STUD
http://www.teenink.org/Resources/ContestsR.html

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