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Sunday, October 5, 2008

So that I was sitting here yesterday at dawn, working as I do (client work, complexities of heart and head), when my cell phone rings. It's my kid, and of course I panic. Because what college kid isn't sleeping in at dawn on a Saturday morning? And isn't worry always my first response?

"Hey," my son says.

"Hey," I say. "What's up?"

"Just calling to say that I'm having the best time." That's it. No crisis. Just joy. There are details: The gift of friendships, of spontaneous decisions, of dances danced, of jokes shared, of a lounge movie watched at 3 AM, of a realization, six weeks into campus life, that the campus is starting to feel like home. "I walk into this party and I realize that I know most of the people there," he says. "Everything fits. It feels right."

I listen. I smile. I lean back in my chair. I don't ask questions; I just listen. "So you're having a good time," I finally say.

"Oh yeah. I really am. Just wanted to call and tell you that, because I knew you'd be up."

It occurred to me then, after he hung up the phone, that maybe I've worked this early-morning seven day a week shift all these years for but one good reason: So that my kid would know it was okay to call at dawn just to say that he is happy.

7 comments:

Anna Lefler said...

Oh, my gosh, Beth. What a gift. And what a beautiful thing you obviously have crafted in your relationship with your son. You both are soooo fortunate. :^)

(P.S. I've switched to a more realistic blogger photo. In case you hadn't noticed.)

Vivian Mahoney said...

This post made me so happy! I agree with Anna. You've done a wonderful job as a parent for your son to want to call you, just to tell you he's happy. Breathe. Smile. And know, you've done good.

PJ Hoover said...

Do you think he had any idea how happy he would make you?
What a great kid he must be!

Beth Kephart said...

Anna, I...don't...see...anything...different...in...your....photo.

Sorry, I just don't.

Anna, Vivian, PJ — you are all so dear. I just got super lucky with my kid. I just did. Didn't deserve it, didn't earn it, he just happened in my life. But the most incredible thing is: We all feel the same way about our children. We've all been gifted.

Saints and Spinners said...

How wonderful! Of course, this reminds me that I will be worrying about my 5 1/2 year old girl years from now, but it's good to be reminded that one's college child can call just to say s/he's happy.

Jena said...

wow--what a wonderful thing. you must be very good about not laying a guilt trip on him for growing up.

Beth Kephart said...

It's funny; when I posted this, I didn't expect to hear from anyone. It was just the urge to write down a moment. So that I am extremely moved by all of you taking the time, empathizing.

They do grow up. We can't stop them. They leave, and we are changed, we just are. But then we get glimpses from afar, and we dwell with those.

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