Wanting Forgiveness
Wednesday, July 8, 2009
Today, at a dance lesson, I was reminded, again, of how complicated, spinning, unfinished, not-close-to-right I am.
How the skin of me in no way reflects all the surge within.
How most of the time, most of the days, I am housewife, mother, the owner of a firm, the nightly chef and the laundromat, the woman with the broom, but how, when I sneak the other me's into the day (the dance, the joy, the jilt of joy, the writer's heart and mind) I am someone else again.
How perhaps this wears on some.
I cried on the way home.
I thought of all of you. How easily we have fallen in with one another. And how forgiving we've become.
10 comments:
Dear, I have no reason to need to forgive you!
and what was it that you wanted forgiveness for? being human?
You do human better than most of us.
Oh do I love this post. Just love it.
We are all not close to right; I love reading each day about how hard you try and how naturally you flow closer to that rightness. I envy and rejoice at your ability to share that struggle.
How do you have such eloquent commenters, too? You inspire us all, Beth, to share the moments of frailty that spring to the surface of all our lives.
Wherefore?
Oh Beth, please don't be sad. Yes, you are all those things...and more besides. There is a magic in you, a life light which draws us in and warms us, mind and soul.
I listen to you, I read your words...and sometimes, yes sometimes, I am dumbstruck by the ...well...the majesty of those words which land so softly, so luminously right there in the very heart of me. I am amazed and humbled that your share your gift with us so generously and without artifice. And in return all I can do is thank you. Thank you, dear Beth.
There is beauty in this too.
Being so much, but not all, is living a life of richness and adventure. I'm glad to be along for the ride.
Such depth of feeling and sensitivity - it's a blessing and a curse.
Be good to yourself, B...
XO
Anna
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